Go To Fun Fair!!

Upon wht i have promised i will post the pictures out for yesterday outing..

b4 i start anything bout the outing, i would like to announce my internal marks has out.. the result is satisfied.. but i believe i can still do it better and score more. overall, the obtained mark is medium for me. neither sad nor happy for the result.. i gt abit slack off after i  knw the mark.. hmmhm.. its a bad sign.. a really bad sign...

ahha.. ok. back to the original topic..

so las nite, as usual... (actually its not usual)  me, hubby and his buddies gt a date to xing hua ge lou  to have dinner.. we departed thr around 6 45 pm... we were jus reached ther too early. his frens which is also my frens la still staying at Louise's house.. we had been waiting for them for around one hour. ahhaha.. after tht, since we expected thy would came late,we went to pick cindy first lu. after we picked her up, back to tht restaurant. stil nt seen the gangs..thus, we decided toorder the dishes first to save time.. ahha.. we had ordered 5 dishes at first lo. around 7something, the gangs reached. all of us gt 10 ppl... we jus asked the kitchen to prepare the dishes for5 ppl d.. eeeeee....i knw its nt enuf, so we ordered one dish again. kailan.. ahha.. my favourite!! 

dintake the dishes' pciture la becuz we were starving until no time to take it. who ask the dishes were serving so late huh.....hubby ate so much las nite. i think most of the fried chicken have been eaten by him lu.. ahhaha.. muaks my hubby.. it will be great if your appetide maintain lik tht forever.. blek..

after the dinner, we chatted a while and frm the chat, i just knew fun fair is opened already !! i was so excited and happy!! bt someone seemed nt to be scared becuz he gt phobia to ply those things.. ahha. blek... ahah.. ahhaa..

fun fair is crowded ne. ahhaa.. i was sweating lik hell right after i play the round round thing.. ehhe.. let pictures talk the rest ba..

                                         Fun fair view.. took it whn we ride on roller coaster=)

                              the round round thing i mentioned jus now d.. ehhe.. challenging !!

                                              noti hubby and rou ..<3

Thats all for the pictures.. its was my first time to be thr with my loved one.. ehhe.. finally my dream is fulfilled.. and im happy with it!!!!!! ehhehe

   

Miss Him

im currently feeling nt good .. being exposure to the sun in the whole morning. aiks.. watever.. what make me so sick and stressed is insufficient time for the exam preparation. it was the first time i felt so anxious tht i could'nt finish reading the chapters right b4 the exam.. i've been very lazy this sem. i dunno wht happen to me ne. anyway, i wil try my best to finish those reading lo. aiks.. jia you ne !!  

will post the pictures of last nite outings (with hubby and frens) later.. hehe.. i miss him so much right now.. <3<3

confidence

Confidence

is what i need the most 

feeling bad

today bad thing happened.. iaks.. im feeling so bad now. i m feeling to confess to parents tht i did something which disappointed them. i m so wanted to tell my family tht .......little viva is injured!! aiks.. 

this morn. i was going to campus with hubby as usual.. found a suitable space to park the car. oki. i turned in, keep forwarding until i think it is bout to stop. whoknows, my estimation was wrong. i slowing down the speed to forward...siapa tahu.. aiks... knocked the bumper and left scar below the bumper. its not obvious to be discovered if u dun really notice bout it. aiks.. i felt so bad over it. my carelessness caused injure on little viva. i dunno wht to do now. .  actually wat i m planning to do is. wash its body the nex morn.. aiks.. i have to protect it. its my carelessness to not protect it from anything. aiks.. parents have trusted me tht i would protect this car very well since im its first owner. aiks.. sorry my little green viva.. aiks.. i would lik to apologize to u. tml i swear, no matter hw tired i will be, hw much sweat i would have, i will clean u up looks like the new one. actually u r stil new ne. aiks. my bad.. sorry =(..

sorry !!

eeeeeee... eventful day??

today is expectedly tired and sien le.. especially during the bis lecture.. i prefer management's lecturer, tht is ms Ng, she is more straight forward and nt long-winded. as for the bis's lecturer, i knw she is trying to nt to make the lecture dead by trying to carry out some extra activity in the middle of lecture, bt i think it doesnt work at all.. becuz.. she doesnt knw us well. some students escaped during the break time. i was about to run away.. however, i cant be so cruel to nt let she completed the lecture wit happy mood, so i kicked this idea out of my mind. however, i gt regretted bout my decision lo.. aiks.. ahha..  nyuk and wei and pris and nicole were chatting with each other to kill the boring period, while i had nth , no one to talk with, thts why i felt the time passed very slowwww. watever it is, i stil managed to sit properly until the lecture is finished.

wht came across my mind during the lecture is going out with hubby tonight. i wonder y i would suddenly think but tis,, mayb its becuz of i couldnt let my day ends with such this boring and uninterested event.. hahaha.thus, we went out at last

ehehe.. he had decided to go to xin hua ge lou to take the dinner.. ahhaha.. he was somehow suprising with my driving. becuz i was about all the time potong potong the cars.. mhmh..its alright i think.. i dun lik to follow ppl at the back if the car was driving too slow. however, i had promised him i will reduce the time to cut the line and cut down the driving speed. ahhah!! 

we reached there for nt more than half hour a.. we had ordered four dishes, one vege, two meat and one tofu.. ahha. actually tofu can be catogorized as vege right. aha. watever la.. ahha.. we had expectedly to nt manage to finish all the dishes. it can be seem tht hubby had tried his very best to finish all the dishes. ehe.. muaks. he ate alot ne today, more than me pulak. jia you de la!! ehhe.. the rest like meat.. we took it away and headed to boulevard after the dinner

shopping a while at boulevard.. no idea whr to go , no idea wat to buy.  he bought himself two belts. one is polo one. d other i dunno ne. the polo one is nice and unique. it suits him very well ne =) . heheh.. both belts are costly lo.. lol... oh ya, we also went to idol house to have a walk. eheh.. guess wht we saw. a lot of key chain, i mean couple key chains are avalaible thr.. he asked me to choose.. ehhe.. so i choose lu.. most of them are too common, we managed to choose a pair of key chain tht is unique compared to the rest of them. it costs rm 29.90ne. its quite costly lo. bt he din mind d.. actually he is mind d.. hhmmhmh.. aiks.. im planning to buy him something to pamper him d. ahha.. 

then.. nowhere to shop, go home lu. holding each other hand walk out to the boulevard.. until backed to home. i miss him so much right now. hope to spend more time with him. scared tht after sis gt the licence, we wont hav much time to be tgt anymore.. aiks. hope everything going smoothly ba.

a lesson for me and every drivers

i am slacking off for a while.. actually i have been slacked off for quite a few days ady..i gt three weeks to my exam preparation.  hope this given time is enuf for me to prepare well for the final exam lo..

im actually nt so excited and nervous bout the final exam .. haha!! is it good or bad? omg.. i nearly involved in accident today. i mean car accident. wat a reckless driver of me can be. there is a persona in front of me since i passed over the lutong bridge. the driver drove with  slower speed. i think its 60 lik tht bA?? thn whn we reached the junction at permy roundabout, it still in front of me.. i stay quite a near distance to it. i thought tht since we were at roundabout, we need to stay as close as wit the front cars so tht we wont be trapped and wait for so long for the next chance to exit the roundabout. this is wat i think. i also nt know is this tot is correct. i wil consult anyone bout it.

ok. back to the story, my head was most of the time stayed at looking if the road is clear, i din mention the persona was stil in front of me. whn i was about to step the oil, i reacted quickly ,switched my feet frm oil to break.. luckily my little viva's head is short, if nt.. ah.. accident will happen and it may toss a shadow for me perhaps tht i will nvr drive anymore. 

i swear,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i will never stay as close wit the front car again le@@...thanks God for protecting me and preventing accident to be happened. i will learn the lesson and drive carefully. whn thr is time to be slow, i wil slow down, whn thr is time to be fast, i will be fast.. i will drive extremely careful careful. i also dun hope anything to be happened to my viva le. eeeeeee... ah.h..

this fri.. i m gonna to somewhere with my hubby again. ahha.. help him distress b4 the serious stress fell on him.. hehe.. 

 

1st year anniversary celebration

whenever i was needed to drive, i will feel nervous and uneasy. i think its becuz i knw myself very well tht im clumsy . its my nature characteristic.. hwever, everything is going smooth today, thanks God to be wit me all the time =)

my best fren, emma.. has nt been finding me for quite a long time. i think she has forgotten me.. hw i wish i gt a best fren who knws me well , who can lend me her shoulder to cry.. aiks.. eeeeee.. the rest jus let the pictures talk ba..

b4 i post the picture. yesterday was having celebration for our one year anniversary.. wat a wonderful year.. for me and him.. sweet, sour, and bitter pieces of memories, all printed clearly in our mind..hohoho.. hehe.. i was the driveer las nite. hahha.. funny thing is he was nervous when i was panic in driving.. i forgot which gear i shud change to when i stepped out of the roundabout.. ahha.. and while we were going to siamese secret. ahha. he was shocked and nervous after he witnessed i screamed and panic.. lol.... hahha.. sorry my dear. hmhm.. ahhah.. 

finally we were sadrly arrived ther.. sayang my hubby ne.. nt mean to scare uu.. i also wan to drive better de.. aiks........too bad, din receive ur compliment.. 

ehhehe..

it was my first time been ther.. let the pic talks ba..

French flies- Rm 7 per basket. a reasonable price =D

Half done Lamb chop - his love <3>

Beef Pepperoni pizza-- BIG THUMBS UP

We cant manage to finish the large size pizza and the big basket of the french flies.. oh muh god.i forgot to take the picture of vanilla float!! it was sonice.. overall. everthing tasted so nice !! ahehhe..satisfied with de dinner.. ehhehe.. especially him. he was excited to hav the lamd chop after a long time.. ehhe.. happy to see him excited bout it and he did talk alot when something tasted so right with his taste.. ^^

after that, we went to bou to shop for daily goods lo. lol.. ahaha.. washing powder, shampoo. these are all the things he need.. haha.. he grabbed my hands walk around le.. ahha.. happy de la.. ahhahahahha.... eeeeeee.. hmmmmm. hehe.. blek.. a happy day for us today.. hehe.. muaks hhubby... happy first year anniversary.. i love uu..

blek.. ^.^

 

Love is nt as simple as u think

I love U...

but i dunno if u love me

no matter hw many times i hav asked u 

do u love me

i knw u wont refused to answer it yes, i do

the last hug i had is terrible 

i can feel tht this will be the last hug from u

ur unwillingness is my fear

i was so scared

i felt uneasy, i kept looking into ur eyes

so do u..

deep inside my heart asking is he the one who will love me foerever??

hw could i forget everything i witnessed..

its truth tht lie in front of my eyes

i hope its just a joke.. i wan the truth frm u

bt i dun dare to confront u..

wat shud i do.. to hav a answer from u..

aiks.....

how complicated can love is

sour feeling

first at all, this will be a sad post..

my life shud hav to be very happy since i gt nice friends, loyal bf and caring family.. i gt everything i wan.. bt still i felt i lost something.

i have no idea since when i have nt been serious in studies. i stil remembered the first sem in foundation, i was a gal who is interested in studies. everyday after reached home, for sure i will take my book out and start revising.. everytime during revision, i can pay full attention to it.. bt now no more, i was like forcing myself to focus reading.. i wonder if i hav lost interest in studying anymore? i was like giving up myself... no more confidence to me. nvr put much effort in doing anything. even group assignment. i wasnt serious on it.. sorry to tina.. sorry tht u gt such this group mate. ur actually gt bad luck to have a group mate lik me

i know i shud be lik this anymore.. i hav to decide to change my life.. i cant be so muddlehead anymore.. i cant be. i really cant.. i wan to get myself back .. aiks...hope thr is something to hold my spirit, reason for me to pursue everything. i jus dun wanna live like a dead person.. 

arggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. i did an unethical thing today ... if i was purely ethical, i wont find out something which is really broke my heart.. by the time i knw it, my nose felt "sour". . later thn starting to think much and persuading myself to think positively.. no matter hw hard i had tried to persuade myself, it doesnt work.. my mind is keeping towards negative side.. i knw i shud believe bt i jus couldnt make it.. wat shud i do.. pretend tht nothing has happened? i knw myself well tht i m nt de person who can hide feelling from anyone.. i like to speak my mind out..  i really dunno what shud i do .. shud i confront it?? aiks.. thing is nt easy as u thought..

i think i shud just sleep and let everything disappear frm my mind.. if only i could do tht.. hmmhmh...   

AGAIN!!

it seems that i had once again let the chance gone.. hmmh.. y i owes not grab the chance tightly and always think very much before doing anything. simple to say, im coward and thinking much is just an excuse. my hated personality has created alot of problems to me.. lol..

once i see so many cars park at the parking lot. my leg is started to shiver. why wont i try to challenge myself. just parking a small viva between two cars IS REALLY HARD for me le.. argghh..i dunno why am i so scared of parking.. maybe i will nvr do anything which im nt sure to do it. its just like i could hardly estimate the distance, the direction which the stering to turn to.. i need to think b4 i start to release my clutch. of cos i know im the beginner, i shudnt be so rushing.. however, car is bought for driving, nt for decoration. i do wish i can drive to senadin with my viva start from tomolo onwards. bt bt bt.. see ... finding excuse again. aiks.. shi bai a.......

whatever it is, im going to set a goal for myself, that is driving to senadin from next mon onwards. no more excuse.. i need to be brave .. i knw.. i shud not be timid.. arggh.. what makes me so scared to drive thr? mati engine? no of cos.. diff conditionn will be if i drive the van. becuz it looks bigger and strong... wakaka.. serious, im nt kidding.. its ok for me to drive van.. i feel no fear at all... the new car is giving me alot of pressure. how would i overcome it? arggh.. somebody helps me..

oki.. im thinking of revealing my abandon space to everyone.. any readers.. aahha.. needs someone help to post my link le. ahaha.. kla.. write till here first.. i need to continue with my research on BIS .. ermmm.... arghhhhh... sien....

 

 

HAPPY!!

i am really happy tht i was able to make him happy.. hehe.. i have no idea why i laughed at the moment i saw him walked into the room.. ehhe.. i just kept on laughing by the time he asking me the reason i laughed. hmhmh.. ahha.... eeeeeeeeeee.....<3>

i think its true that he is the reason to make me smile.. i have been stressed up these three days.. once i saw him, i felt so relieved and relax.. time always goes so fast during happy hour.. eeeeeee.. but i had satisfied with the short happy hour becuz i was eventually made him happy.. eeeeee... i miss him so bad right now.. im nt sure if he hears my heart talking.. im truly love him.. he is the one who can make my day down and up.. happy and sad. my mood has been set up by him.. he brightens my day. he is my everything.. i wish i could precious him.. i wish i could make him happy all the time.. i wish i will not hurt him, disappoint him.. eeeeeee... muaks hubby.. i love u.. i really do... muaks...  

ah!!

i realized something which is very important to me.. i just browsed through the website las few days to search about ways to be brave and confident..

first tips it provided is Dun ever think too much when you want to do something. i think it's the only effective way for me to do . the other ways such as do what you dun dare to do bt u wn to do so badly for 15 min? i currently dunhave guts to drive. bt is it enuf to do it for 15 min?? i think its really can., i would jus need to practice hw to reverse and parking at my house's parking area. oki. the others way i forgot ady

ahhhhhh.. why am i so timid??.. my dear has been waiting for me to go find him and i act lik a coward keep blaming to the viva(manual car). aiks. i shudnt behave like this. its just so.. hated?? why can i be so stupid in driving? i can drive steaily on the road. but when i come to parking or reverse. god.. i have no idea.. turn stering to left or right is totally so unfamiliar with me.. im a noob or wat?? i need my dad's help so much.

besides tht, i do need to overcome the fear.. fear that mati enjin at roundabout? which is really dangerous once u failed to do it. roundabout is just on the highway. can u imagine it? stop at the junction and cause traffic jam. wahhh.... ahahha.. i cant stop imagine bout it.. i must.. wat? practice la... my sis is indeed assisting me alot. she's been my guard all the time during driving. and her temper is just same as my dadone.. which giving me much pressure until i scare this scare tht. bt without them, i wont know my reversing and parking skill can be sucks lik this.. !! argghh... what to do,, im waiting for dad coming back, to head to the senadin. ahh.. i wish everything is ok la.. .. jus be relax ma.. relax. mhmmh.. ah!! 

PRACTISE

i gt give up easily.. im thinking how to be brave and confident. the failure keep striking me. and i dunno how to beat it down. i do want to face the problem. i really want.. i mind d way ppl look at me?? i actually dun scare.. bt once i meet failure, i will straight away get beat down.. aiks.. i know i cant continue to be like this.  ppl around me starts to feel unsecure to be with me. even my family too. wht am i going to do? keep on practicing?? i dunno.. hmmh.. i shud be a calm and wise.. most important is be brave.. i shud move first.. shud overcome it alone.. i cant lose man.. i really cant.. cant escape anymore..

if i keep telling myself lik this.. will i eventually succeed ?? of cos i know heart works with my think is de best solution. and also PRACTISE...........