oh.. everything is testing my patience

This is where the place i would abandon all my negative and bad feeling.. here i am to mention first, i would not come here unless something worse is happened or something which could make my day brighten all the day, so far, my life is currently void of hapiness lo.. 

what am i going to write in my first post in the abandoned blog is.. about friend issue.. anyone who knows me well will knw that im not FRIENDLY person. if i think i can go easily with you, i will be friend with you.. i dunno if it is a bad personality, i've tried my best to be what thy wan me to be.. becuz i nvr wan to be resisted by my frens.. wat i know for now is i have a few friends now.. which i wanted to add more, i want to expand my circle man. who nvr wan to hav this? argghh.. especially a caring fren, good fren, who is having mere identical with my personality. i hav finally found one. bt i m nt sure if she is willing to accept her as my long-term fren. wht i mean long term here is, i do need a fren who can be with me forever.. lik wht normally written in novel, story book or quotation. " Treasure your friends as they are your forever companion". yeah... its true. it is dam* important to have a long-term fren man. aaahhhhhhhhh.. finish fren stuff.. now..

.. ah.. i tot today will be a perfect day for me .. what im trying to say is. a prefect day which doing all the things smoothly.. who knows, ah.. jus a tiny little buddy (dead) simply worsen my day. ahhhhhh.. what la.. why couldnt u compatible with me? is it im too hard for u to treat me like ur owner??  im gently enuf to treat u as my honey.. bt why u stil did it to me??? or im stil nt qualified to be ur owner.?? arghhh..wts the problem.. or im too naive to u?? hahah.. btw.. im nt going to give up .. ur testing my patience and im going to prove to u tht is i control u nt in reverse ok?? eeeeee... however, u need to cooperate with me to make everything smoothly ok?? if only if u do so, i will pamper u, giving u a flower bath..decorating u with cute stuff..wah.. sounds good right., take ur time to think bout it.. its beneficial to u.. =)..   

i think thats all for my first post.. hmmhmh.. do not expect i will come here everyday, or once in a week. i may turnmyself up at least once a month or none? ahaha.. kla.. my first post.. i m going to abandon urself here.. wil nvr reveal ur identity.. ahahha.. jiane!!